Jamaica.

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I am in Jamaica with my church having the best time ever.

I will be back the 22nd.

Love you all.

love always,
jim.

strangeness

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It's amazing to me how fast we've all grown up.
I can't believe how much things change.

I leave for Jamaica tomorrow. So I won't see you for a while.
And for the first time ever, "a while" can be quite a long time.
So if you leave before I get back, know that I miss you terribly and I wish that we didn't have to move onto bigger and better things. But at the same time, I'm glad that we do.

I loved growing up with all of you, and I hope that even though we are just starting to separate, we can still grow up together across whatever distance there may be.



It's strange to watch people begin to move away, to leave the one place that we've all known for most of our lives.

It's strange to think that my parents started off somewhere very far from here, and someday my kids may think of this place as very far away.

It's strange how distances can seem so close and yet so very far away at the exact same time.

but most of all, it's strange how I can be so incredibly happy with the experiences we've had together, and yet so disappointed that we couldn't have had more.

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June 6th = best night of summer thus far.

love always,
jim.

When all's been said and written, the two of us will watch the world cave in. . .

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I want to be a "good guy"
I want to be "mr. reliable"

but we are shaped by both the good and the bad, through both our triumphs and our mistakes. And maybe sometimes you have to realize that nobody is "good" or "bad" or "reliable" or "flaky" but that in the end, we're all the same. In the end we are all shaped by the same forces. The same triumphs and mistakes.

In the end we're all good and bad, reliable and flaky.

and that's what makes us human.
that's what makes us real.
and that's what makes life interesting.


and maybe that is nice.



love always,
jim.

Sunday, June 3, 2007, 12:25 AM

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I want to be a "good guy"
I want to be "mr. reliable"


I think that would be nice.

Some far off midafternoon.

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Forever young, I want to be forever young. I want to always see things in hindsight. To understand that feelings that I have often pass before I can understand them. and most of all to know that the few times when I do understand life, it is truly remarkable.

I want to write.
I want to help people.
to help the world.
to help other people help the world.

I want to say things that move people.
that help people.
that change people;
to say things that make people want to be different.
want to be better.

I want someone to want me. to need me. to understand me.

I want someone to share a giant bowl of cereal with me every morning. Like a mixing size bowl. And we'll both wear plain white t-shirts. And watch cartoons until midafternoon. We won't worry so much about the world, about our obligations or our careers. It will just be us, and cartoons, and cereal in the midafternoon. And that will be enough.


I think if I could just have that, everything would be ok.


But to tell the truth, everything is pretty ok now.

So you can disregard all that if you like.

Love always,
jim.

I think I miss someone who may or may not even exist.

Maybe that's what love is. . .