Day 2242 - Depth Perception

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I have been feeling extremely optimistic today. Feeling like despite the fact that I really have no idea what the rest of my life looks like, it's going to be positive. Perhaps it's the experiences and friendships I've been a part of this semester or perhaps it's just the fact that the sun is finally coming back, but I feel good.

My stimulus for writing this is something that just happened about three seconds ago; my phone buzzed, so I was reaching for it in the dark and closed my hand about three inches too soon. And I thought it was weird that the light of the phone looked like it was right there, but it wasn't. And while this doesn't really seem like a life altering moment, it got me thinking about depth perception.

We just got back from a birthday party for my sister-in-law's parents, and it made me think about how much I like being part of a family. I've been thinking that a lot lately--that I'm glad to be part of a family. And the weird thing is, why didn't I think that before? I obviously never hated my family or anything, but I never had this strong of a feeling. I think that's what depth perception is like; it's understanding the relationships between things. Or maybe it's understanding your understanding of the relationships between things. And up until now, my depth perception was not that great.

But something has changed for me recently--like I've gotten new bifocals. I think I understand how I relate to people. I understand more about friendship and family than I think I ever have, and it's weird to be relearning things that I always considered to be the basics. Maybe I've found my place (at least for the time being). And that's a really nice feeling to have, I think.

love always,
-jim.