By the time you read this post, it won't be what I'm feeling at all.

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I just realized that every time you look at a picture, it means that the moment in time which that picture represents is over. By the time you look at the image, what it represents is over. I wish you could look at a picture of something while it was still happening.

I realized this because I was looking at one of my friend's pictures of when he used to live in Ohio. And it made me sad, even though I didn't know or miss any of the people in the pictures. But because the moments those pictures represent are over now, and it is impossible for me to be any more a part of them than if I had never seen those pictures in the first place.

It's sad to think that the only physical representation you can ever have of something is always of something as it used to be. By the time the picture is taken, the person in it has aged-even if only for a second. By the time the painter signs his name at the bottom, the paint does not show what it was intended to. I've realized that nothing is really timeless.

I wish I could take a picture that would capture something constant.
A picture that wouldn't change with one's emotions.
That would remind of the past just as much as it would remind of the future.
A true representation of something as it is and will always be.

I wish I could paint a picture that would change as everything changes.
A picture that would age along with the subject it represents.
That would be solid and fluid at the same time.
A real view of life-now and always.




But I can't. . .

Shit.



Love always,
jim.

P.S. I guess that even though the moment is over, having something to remember it is good. But I still wish things didn't have to change. Because I'm happy now.