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I'm thrilled that people may have finally started caring. We raised over $1200 and it was a great time.

Thanks to everybody who came and everybody who was involved with planning, set-up, and rocking out.

I'm really proud of what happened.

It makes me wish I had another year. I should have done so much more.

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

Currently Listening ...Is a Real Boy By Say Anything see related

Well, it is day 1192, and I am feeling pretty good.

Which is strange.

I don't understand how there can be such an immense feeling of comfort at the end of something that means so much.
Perhaps its the feeling of a job well done. Or the pride in friendships that last even after the catalyst which made them occur is gone. Maybe I just stayed up too late at the cast party.

Whatever it is, I'm happy with where I am. I'm proud of what we've done. I'm sad that it has to end, but not sad enough to outweigh my happiness that it happened at all.

To all those who have ever been in "Thespian Troupe 301," I'm proud to have been a part of it with all of you. Each and every one of you has changed my life with your amazing talent and friendship.

and to those of you not graduating, keep it up, so I have something to see next year.


I think I'm ready to graduate now. . .

Love always,
jim.

1191 days.

and then there was only one. . .

The time they are a-changing (1188 days)

Currently Reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower By Stephen Chbosky see related

So I just got home from my last ever play practice.
Then I will have three performances.
and then it will all be over.

and I will be very lost I think.



I tried on my cap and gown today. I looked in the mirror. and I didn't see me.

I wasn't a kid anymore. I was an adult. I was boring.

I don't want to grow up.


This sucks. I don't see how something can be so depressing and so exciting at the same time.
I don't know how I can feel so proud and yet so unaccomplished;
so wise and yet so stupid;
so lost and yet strangely found.

I just miss being little and not knowing that the world had its problems.

I think Charlie said it best when he said:

"I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't."

I think it would be great if I could stay right where I am forever.
I feel like I finally know what is going on, where I belong.
But maybe the time when you know everything is the time when you need to move on. Maybe you have to move on so that you will continue to be lost and then the times when you are found mean something.

I wish that wasn't how it worked. I think it would be great if that wasn't how it worked.
I think it would be great if sledding were always enough.

Love always,
jim.

Okay, how ya doing? I'm Lloyd, and we're gonna watch the movie "Coccoon." I've never actually seen it, but I heard its very good, it makes you happy. Its about a group of people who go to outer space... hope I didnt give anything away there.

Currently Listening Give Up By The Postal Service see related

I find it really hard to admit this. . . but . . . I think I'm growing up.

*gulp*

so the idea of just living lasted about a day.

Yes, you can't spend your whole life worrying. But you have to realize that while life is life, life is also complicated.

You can't just trust that your boat will coast through the rocky waters. At some point you will have to start driving before you've bottomed out and sunk.

Life is life, but realization is survival.

I just hope this doesn't mean what it very well may. . .